Stop feeding my demons.

Do you know what I find horrible? 

    When you are already feeling down and icky. You know? Just one of those moods that you sometimes get stuck in? While you feel this way, people from everywhere seem to make it worse. Whatever happened to a little understanding among humans?? I am human, you are human WE ARE ALL HUMAN....Why do we continue to judge people based on the little facts we think we know about them? I can not begin to understand why. It seams like every time I am feeling down or going through a rough faze, people love to talk about me. They love to say things behind my back. They tell everyone else they issues with me....except me..... This I do not understand. I am not one of those people that leaves issues unsolved. I can not solve an issue if I am not aware of it. So this is when I say: Stop feeding my demons! I am already hard enough on my self, with my looks and my weight. I already worry about what people think about me. I don't need people to talk about me behind my back. If you have an issue say it. Don't talk about it with everyone else but the person you have it with. I cant stand it. I know I am venting, people will probably judge for that. Oh my gosh she has feelings??! HOW HORRIBLE. ugg. Kinda makes me sick to my stomach.
I guess no one cares to take the time to get to know me and better understand why I do what I do. I have been threw so much in my life and don't need people judging me for it. I dont judge people, I get to know them as a person. I can't do that if they don't give me that chance.I know everyone has a story to be heard. I respect that. Why cant I get that back? I guess I don't understand........I am human. I am not perfect. I do not want to be. I accept people how they are. I have an open mind. I just don't understand what some people find so wrong with me?
As you can see I am not having the best week. I feel like all I am getting is bad news. Its the kind of week where you want to hide under a rock and just stay there. Forever.