People Talk

Something that really gets to me is: When people talk behind your back ....even when they are supposed to be your very good friend. I will admit I have had my moments where I am upset and say things......but I will not trash talk to just trash talk. If you have something to share with someone say it to them not to someone else and not in a nasty way that makes them question weather you honestly like them or not. When people talk about me it really gets to me...I honestly wish it didn't....I always try to remember that people will always talk and the important thing is to be myself and just keep living my life. When someone who is close to you though talks about you....it is much harder to let go....any suggestions of how I can deal with this better?

Auto Immune Disease&Me....

Auto Immune Diseases effect my life in a large way I have two that I currently know of and I have decided to talk about them because it is something you will probably hear about often  in my blogs because it's a big part of who I am. The first One I was diagnosed with is: Hypothyroidism this is when the thyroid (located in the neck) does not produce the right hormones to keep the body working properly I have taken meds for this since I was 11 years old. 
Celiac  Disease is my bigger burden to bare Celiac Disease is when your small intestines can not process the proteins found in wheat,barley and Rye and sometimes oats unless they are packaged correct. If someone who has Celiac continues to eat gluten it can cause many many health problems as life goes on.It is also very painful and unplesent... It can also cause cancers. I work very hard to remain gluten free, it can be very stressful and frustrating when trying to find a place to go out and eat. I constantly feel like a burden to those around me because I need special treatment or my food needs special prep. The food that is gluten free is also much more expensive but does not taste as good. I have been gluten free for 3 years. There is no pill, and no cure but to eat a gluten free diet.

My Climb

I'm done sitting on the sidelines watching other's achieve what I want so badly. I'm reaching out with confidence that I will succeed.

No more settling for less then I can accomplish. I will reach my goals and be happy with what I am doing every day in my life. I will not stop until I climb that Mountain. I will reach the very top of it. When I fall I will reach out to friends and family to remind me that I can get back up and start again. Sometimes I may take a wrong turn. The path I thought I was suppose to take may seam like it will reach the top of the mountain but it only comes to a dead end and I may have to turn around. Starting on a new path is where I am heading right now searching for that path that will lead me forward and not leave me stuck in the mud. I am taking the new path in life no matter how different or scary it looks I'm taking it because I want to reach the top of this mountain. 

Something I wrote one day for my boyfriend that was saved on my computer.

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    When I look into your eyes I see the pain your going threw. It makes me want to cry and just take it all away from you. The pain you feel I feel too we share a heart and you  know it’s true. So take my hand and let me hold you close, I want to ease your pain and remind you, you are not alone.

    We’ve all got our burdens and I see how you carry yours, like a heavy wait on your shoulders barring down upon your world. Its like a giant wave washing over us, we feel like we will never get back up. This giant wave has pulled us under, We feel it has us beat, but then we remember we’ve got each other and it‘s so sweet.

    I look up and see this mountain ahead of me you seam to be on top reaching down for me. I feel that I never will reach the peak of where I’m going when I seam to loose my way your right there beside me and your love is showing. Sometimes I feel like this world is crashing down on me I think it’s time to give up and all my demons are getting me. I turn to you and your arms get me threw all the dark places that my mind leads me too.

    Life comes at us from all corners, it tries to split us up with daily weight and burdens its like a gravel road filed with mud and muck. If we stand strong like a rock and stare  it in the eye together its not going to win and everything will get better. Stay strong with me and someday all will be good, don’t let life get you down or think you aren‘t good enough. I’m nothing with out you and your nothing with out me. Together we are unchangeable unbeatable, unstoppable.

My first Blog

Hello all,

Or anyone who cares to read this. I am trying this out because I am someone who loves to share my thoughts and loves to wright. I hope that I can connect with others who love to share and wright also :) I hope you enjoy! Know that some days I may express things that you may not agree with..but know that is part of who I am I am always honest and myself. thanks for reading :D