Her pitch.

She holds her Fate, her life in her hands. She holds it on the pitchers mound of choice and decision....

She wonders if she makes the toss....where will it land....will it land where she hopes it will? She looks to the stands she sees her family, and loved ones watching her...cheering her on,supporting her for her next toss. She sees people who have done her wrong behind the fence yelling words of doubt and hate, telling her no matter how she throws that ball, or how hard she tries she will not make it. She looks to the sky the sun shines in her eyes as the clouds part. The voices of doubt start to diminish and she smiles at them. They stop with there words of doubt and look down they know, that she will no longer listen to there hateful words. She pulls her hand up, she holds her fate in her hands..she knows that this pitch means everything to her....she knows that where it goes is where life will take her. She swings her arm back and tosses the ball with everything she has in her. 
Her Fate is taking off. 

Goin' a ghost huntin'!

So, tonight I am going ghost hunting with some of my closest friends. Sounds crazy right? But I thought about  it and figured, it could probably be interesting! Maybe we will find something interesting or something worth while.... All the shows where they go "ghost hunting" interest me and I figured you only live once so why not do something kinda crazy once and a while?? I hope I get information from this trip and not a fear and a better understanding on what the spirits want or maybe why they have been left behind. I am confident at whatever happens I will live threw it lol and probably even be fascinated by it ...who knows! shall be interesting!! A couple more hours until we head out...trying to stay awake and keep my energy up...wish me luck!! 

The path isen't always clear but you'll find it.

Well, This week I have began my LNA classes. Here I go a whole new adventure!!
  With a new adventure comes, excitement, Anxiety , insecurities and wondering where it will bring you!
I feel all of those things I also feel fear that I  will not pass or I wont take to it and all of my dreams will fall apart again. But, I am working on putting those feelings behind me, with a new experience I will bring along  new feelings. This for me is a challenge, I have always doubted myself...I have come along way with this and am working to get over it and become successful. Everyone knows to have positive results you must think positively.
 Before I started this class I promised  myself I was done loosing, done not being proud of myself, done wondering where I was going. This time I am doing everything in my power to make sure I am on the right path.. I will not stop until I get where I am going, I will be happy with my career and achieve everything I want and need to!
I also want to speak to the fact that I am very lucky to have so many people behind  me while I do this. I have an awesome Boy friend, amazing parents and wonderful friends! For this I feel so blessed...and know that where ever my path brings me these people will have my back. They will support me and be proud of me and know I will achieve.
So here I go to achieve success :) see you on the other side.

one of those days...

Do you ever have those days where you feel like you can't get anything right? You aren't sure you ever will? 
I will be honest..I do  a lot of people judge me from what they know or hear or perceive me to be. They take just what they see or know and judge me on that....they don't take time to get to know the inside of me.... They don't think about why I may act a certain way...or maybe something they say or do hurts me inside....they dont know why...they don't bother to ask.....
 I guess that's life....Some people will never take the time to get to know why you tick or why you act a certain way. It's sad sometimes you care so much about someone and they don't do you the favor of really getting to know you. It makes me loose hope...I have had people I considered my close friends that didn't really know me. I knew they wouldn't understand....I didn't keep them around though. I knew it wasn't worth it. 
it's hard when someone who is close to you has someone they are close to ...that you have no choice but to see the good in them, even when they don't do the same for you...but because of who they are in the relationship they must get respect no matter what....or you would probably be considered rude and unworthy. Why don't these people give that same kind of respect back? I don't really understand that....why is no one there to stick up for me when i would always be there for them.  I am just venting of course ...but you know it's true.....I think no matter who you are in a relationship you deserve respect.....because if not given respect you will be down for more days then you are up.
Hope you enjoyed even though it was a bit down today.
Until later........

Change&Fate

Change, is really hard for most people.. Change though I have come to learn is very necessary. 

 Weather it's realizing who your real friends are, getting hurt just to find out, or maybe it's choosing a whole new career path in life. 

I have gone threw both recently and I am so happy and willing to accept this change that fate has brought, I trust fate and will let it lead me where I need to go...Monday I start LNA classes a whole new journey...something I've never done before. I look forward to this new journey and have confidence that I am going in the right direction. 

I am comforted by the fact that I have some amazing people in my life to support me when things get hard. I have a wonderful family, friends and an amazing boy friend....a few things I know will not change. Fate sometimes takes us  on a wild ride and it's those people who understand why we do what we do ....and that sometimes fate or the right thing drives our choices....it's those people that fate will always keep around. Those are the people that help shape us, support us and always have our back no matter what. 

Those people in my life...support the good in others and know that I make choices for the best. They know that sometimes I need a little picking up when I am down. For all those people I will always be here....Threw all the change that fate brings us threw. 

Hope you enjoyed....hope to blog more. 

Until next time...:)